Wow, my blogging has fallen SO by the wayside. This was brought to my attention by a friend a few nights ago, when he asked me when I was going to post something new. So, here goes.
Let's get business out of the way - I'm obviously still doing the Cannonball thing, since there are new reviews being posted on Pajiba nearly every day. It's gotten a little harder to switch up the rotation, but there are some troopers out there still going strong. I promise you I will update the main page tomorrow, since I'm stuck in the house with some sort of mutant summer bug. I feel terrible that I haven't done it sooner, but by my calculations I spend about 45 hours a week at work, not counting the two hour commute. It's pretty draining. Still that's no excuse for neglecting the Read, and I apologize to the participants and to my boss DR.
I've been doing other stuff too...blood drive, beach holiday, random evenings in my sister's garden, three hour car inspections...hell, I don't know where the time goes. I'm looking for a new job; rocking the single life again; trying to figure out what I'm doing with the rest of my life and what I want to be when I grow up. All of my friends and family are hitched and raising offspring, so I've been subjected to a litany of "When are you going to meet someone? Aren't you worried you won't have kids? Don't you want a husband?" Why, thank you, well-meaning family and friends. I'm just going to drink a bleach cocktail and stick my head in the oven, thanks. You've reduced the meaning of my life to the sum of my left ring finger and my ladybits.
Ah, it's all so confusing. Maybe it's the early 30s blues. Maybe it's exhaustion. Maybe I missed the boat when I was younger - it could be true that you only get lucky enough to really fall in love once, or that could just be a Nora Roberts romance novel myth. All I know is that I have to make the best of what I've got, and I'm going to work on that every day. Starting today. While I lie on my couch and ignore my throbbing ear canal.
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Things do sure get busy. I am very familiar with the early 30s blues. As for the one love bullshit, don't fall for it. There are people who come into your life at certain times but there are really so so many people that are good mates for each of us. Think about how many good friends you have had, imagine if you only got one in your life. Enjoy the single life and all of your life and things will unfold the way that they should.
Aww, thanks Alli. That really means a lot, especially since you're the only one who reads my blog. :)
I'm just going to keep truckin', as they say, but I have to admit that spending the weekend of the Fourth on the beach and seeing all the kids in their bikinis with their iPods and laughter and beers made me wonder where the hell my twenties went.
I sometimes wonder that as well, but for me I had a baby and got married at 23 then separated at 28 so I had a different experience than most. I am coming up on my 4 year freedom anniversary (it is the day after my best friend's wedding so it is easy to remember) I am going through some shit with the new bf again (why do people fuck with their happiness so much, I am just not like that, I am honest and I just seem to keep getting hit in the face - not literally) Anyhow, all I know is I am focusing on the things that I have the power to change and staying positive as much as I can manage.
Alli, we should hang out more.
Sounds like a good plan, however I won't be in your neighborhood for quite some time ;)
hey there lady! I was just thinking of you the other day, and stopped by here to see if you still post and saw that it's been awhile and wondered if you okay.
can we do coffee someone? if love to have some real life face to face time.
my email should be connected to this comment.
I'll even bring you some cookies!
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